The Project
When I turned 35 last week, I told my self that I should have a project that's going to last for a year. I was initially stumped since I had no idea what I should do or what I did everyday was worthy of being called a project.
Then I realized just a few minutes ago that I already had the project going even without my knowing it: posting on Instagram everyday for a year.
I know it's nothing new. People do it everyday. Hell, PhiPhi O'Hara even went as far as to do a series called 365 Days of Drag on Instagram.
For me though, knowing that my life is too mundane, uploading something interesting everyday is going to be a challenge. But I have already begun the challenge.
The first picture I posted was of my watch showing 12 midnight on the eve of my birthday. 35. Christ, where has time gone? It wasn't so long ago that I was the youngest person in my college org. Now I am the mother of 2 kids.
Anyway, I feel like this project is going to be good for me. I don't remember most of my life (very mundane, remember? not worth remembering), and this year-long project will help me recall snippets of a life that's moving faster than I would like.
And I have been losing my memory lately. I have been having trouble recalling words that used to come to me easily. I find my self pausing and taking a few seconds to remember words. And there have been times when I can't recall a word at all. This is making me feel as if I am on my way to early onset dementia. If that happens, I hope I remember enough to tell my family about this blog.
Being the person that I am, not a lot of people in my family know my thoughts. They have watched me become more and more introverted over the years, and lately I have taken to staying inside the house on my days off and being fine with not stepping out to see the world unless I have to. To my family, I am probably that person who can do something crazy once provoked. Or maybe they're waiting for me to just lose all my marbles. Who knows.
What I do know is that this project will be my way of telling my self that, hopefully, my life is not as ordinary as I thought. This project will force me to look for something new in my everyday life. This project will give me focus.
This project will help me remember.
Then I realized just a few minutes ago that I already had the project going even without my knowing it: posting on Instagram everyday for a year.
I know it's nothing new. People do it everyday. Hell, PhiPhi O'Hara even went as far as to do a series called 365 Days of Drag on Instagram.
For me though, knowing that my life is too mundane, uploading something interesting everyday is going to be a challenge. But I have already begun the challenge.
The first picture I posted was of my watch showing 12 midnight on the eve of my birthday. 35. Christ, where has time gone? It wasn't so long ago that I was the youngest person in my college org. Now I am the mother of 2 kids.
Anyway, I feel like this project is going to be good for me. I don't remember most of my life (very mundane, remember? not worth remembering), and this year-long project will help me recall snippets of a life that's moving faster than I would like.
And I have been losing my memory lately. I have been having trouble recalling words that used to come to me easily. I find my self pausing and taking a few seconds to remember words. And there have been times when I can't recall a word at all. This is making me feel as if I am on my way to early onset dementia. If that happens, I hope I remember enough to tell my family about this blog.
Being the person that I am, not a lot of people in my family know my thoughts. They have watched me become more and more introverted over the years, and lately I have taken to staying inside the house on my days off and being fine with not stepping out to see the world unless I have to. To my family, I am probably that person who can do something crazy once provoked. Or maybe they're waiting for me to just lose all my marbles. Who knows.
What I do know is that this project will be my way of telling my self that, hopefully, my life is not as ordinary as I thought. This project will force me to look for something new in my everyday life. This project will give me focus.
This project will help me remember.
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