She Lost the Baby
My boss lost her baby today. She's not just my boss, she's also my friend.
She'd been wanting a baby of her own for the longest time, and she was so happy when she got pregnant early last year. Unfortunately, she lost the baby. Although she didn't show it, I knew how sad she was that she miscarried.
When she got pregnant again this year, I was so happy that one of her wishes was finally going to come true. I even admired her for coming in to work knowing that she had a high risk pregnancy given her age.
I got a text from her a few minutes ago telling me she will not be able to report to work tomorrow. The reason? She lost her baby today. Her baby who would have made her the happiest person in the world, the baby she had been longing for almost all her life. I couldn't finish reading her message because I started tearing up.
And then I realized how shallow I have become.
While I was complaining about how hot my room was, a friend of mine was going through one of the worst things a person could ever experience. She was probably scared and sad. Scared because she has to undergo a C-section tomorrow, and sad that she no longer had this life growing inside of her.
I'm guessing by now she's asking God why all of this is happening. She's probably questioning her faith and wondering if she ever did something so horrible that God would deny her the one thing that she has been praying for all her adult life.
She's not just my boss, she's also my friend.
At one of my lowest points, she assured me that things were going to be okay and that everything was going to be just fine. I wish I could say the same thing to her. But what can you say to someone who just lost something so precious and irreplaceable?
Life is life. I would like to say it's unfair but I believe in God having a bigger and better plan for all of us. I'm a non-practicing Catholic but my faith is firm and intact. I believe in God, and I also believe that the universe will work itself out in the end. All I can do right now is pray and give my support.
Much love, Angelee.
She'd been wanting a baby of her own for the longest time, and she was so happy when she got pregnant early last year. Unfortunately, she lost the baby. Although she didn't show it, I knew how sad she was that she miscarried.
When she got pregnant again this year, I was so happy that one of her wishes was finally going to come true. I even admired her for coming in to work knowing that she had a high risk pregnancy given her age.
I got a text from her a few minutes ago telling me she will not be able to report to work tomorrow. The reason? She lost her baby today. Her baby who would have made her the happiest person in the world, the baby she had been longing for almost all her life. I couldn't finish reading her message because I started tearing up.
And then I realized how shallow I have become.
While I was complaining about how hot my room was, a friend of mine was going through one of the worst things a person could ever experience. She was probably scared and sad. Scared because she has to undergo a C-section tomorrow, and sad that she no longer had this life growing inside of her.
I'm guessing by now she's asking God why all of this is happening. She's probably questioning her faith and wondering if she ever did something so horrible that God would deny her the one thing that she has been praying for all her adult life.
She's not just my boss, she's also my friend.
At one of my lowest points, she assured me that things were going to be okay and that everything was going to be just fine. I wish I could say the same thing to her. But what can you say to someone who just lost something so precious and irreplaceable?
Life is life. I would like to say it's unfair but I believe in God having a bigger and better plan for all of us. I'm a non-practicing Catholic but my faith is firm and intact. I believe in God, and I also believe that the universe will work itself out in the end. All I can do right now is pray and give my support.
Much love, Angelee.
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